How do you become a non-smoker?

The following is not your typical post, but one that I must post...

I've been wanting to quit smoking for years. For cost reasons, for health reasons, for many reasons. But I've never had success.
I know people weaker than me who have quit cold-turkey, didn't work for me.
I know people who quit slowly, I tried that, but always returned to a pack-a-day.
I know people who have quit with the patch, I smoked while wearing it.
I know people who quit with the gum, it tasted nasty so I spit it out and lit up.
I know people who quit with hypnosis, that's a joke, would never work for me.
I know people who quit through exersize, that for me just gets the nicotine circulating through my blood and makes me want to smoke again.
But I also have known many people to die from smoking and I must quit. I just need to find what works for me. I'm already two weeks past my new year's resolution and still smoking. Maybe the problem is that I like smoking.

Anyone have suggestions? Does anyone want to quit as well? How about a blogger-ex-smoker support group?

My last cigarette was Tuesday January 16th @ 10:30am.

Critical Mistakes

So to fix it 21,500 more troops will be sent (for now, I'm sure there will be more later) and Billions more dollars spent. (must equal more death and destruction).

So, how does it end?

Riddled with Riddles

photo by transient

So farewell. Farewell mindless misery.

Another year has ended.
This one has taken its toll more than most for me.
So to bid farewell to the year is not sorrowful.
A year full of tragedy and death.

The summer began with the death of my younger brother.
It took me a couple of months to learn how to breath again, but not well enough to talk about it.

Then the War on Lebanon, more death. It made me start blogging, (I wanted to blog about my brother as a memorial and for therapy, but couldn't type the words. I may later)

Thankfully the War part is over even if other tragedies continued with fall out, spoils and ordanances left as explosive reminders.

So i'm happy to leave 2006 behind, I'll never forget it, but I'm glad to leave it.

so what will '07 bring? Will we finally know some peace? Will '06 look good in comparison?

I am the purple eggplant char
Hovering over your orange sunset swirl
Storming the night’s long anxious nag
Tainting your idyllic rhythmic dreams
Fleshing your boundaries raised and angry
I am the he, the hue of terror
Two shades darker painted as my beard grows longer, coarser
A wide and wooly, black and grey chaos to my heel
I am the waking flesh splitting winter dry
Seeping to chill your warm soul

I am the stomp of well-knit limbs
Snuffing your innocent Western mind
Mammoth and timberous strokes of ignorance
Blanketing your blissful intellectic seek
Marking you path exhausted and raw
I am the common, the shadow of truth
Languishly deficient as my wrap twists tighter, darker
A thin and linen, white and bloody noose to my chest
I am the satanic drip off your idle fingers
Draining the veins till body’s rest.

Merry Christmas

For these holidays I wish for you a return
to your homes
to normalcy
to peace
to freedom
to school
to clean water
to work
to a human existance with no tank gunner pushing your every move

A first short film

A Wake

pattern recognition

i’m sliding off this warped clump of insignificant dirt

pushed aside by ravenous puppet shells
trampled under their rant triggered hasty charges
sacrificed for their idol trinkets
sliding off into a cold and inhumane space
where the return is not in the stars
but in the force of natural law.

Can You Guess?

What are these pics?

Where are they and more importantly when?
Is this before and after?

or what?

Permeable Peace

There is something inescapable, even through time-travel. That is the unbearable weight of moving, the intolerable dankness of breathing, and the incurable scope of wanting. It may be that we as individuals are ultimately insignificant, doomed to run the required maze and die. But what if we choose not to? We may never become able to lift our singular stain and leave fragrant petals. Yet if we consciously attempt an altered state, can all our burdens become pliable?........