What can you do when there’s nothing you want to do?
How can shut it all down without ending your life?
How can you escape without being absent?
Or turn it all off without hurting the people who rely on you?
Where do you go?
I’ve tried time travel, tried geographic shifts and even treks into alternate universes.
Hell, I’ve even tried meditation and prayer.
And there is just nothing to bring on idle weightlessness. Nothing to silence the voices or bring to halt the twitching. Nothing to drown the thoughts or place them in a cryogenic state until the cure. There is nothing and nothing more.
But not the nothing I seek, this one has the incessant buzz of a low voltage leak hunting the first compromise of the shield to leap out onto my unsuspecting twitching hands attempting only relief and the fix but finding the sting of electric shock to toss me back into the cycle of cyclical thought un resolving my conflict yet compounding into a diseased strand to merge with past strands into a strain of incurable parasitic mind razors which lead me to forget what original thought thought of this torment .
And I want to shut it all down.
How do you shut it down without ending your life?
How can you escape without being absent?
How can you just turn it off before you’re the one who’s hurt?
